Winter Blues

I haven't been blogging... I haven't been doing much of anything.

Winter is here... and with its arrival, departs my desire to, well... do anything. I wouldn't go so far as to say die... because that would be a little extreme, and possibly worriesome to some close people who might read this. But, winter does not make me want to jump for joy.

Born in June, I love the summer. Give me warmth. Give me sunshine. Give me long days, with short nights. Give me picnics and beaches and driving with the windows down.

I have to wonder how closely my spirit is related to that of the bear. I really feel like I just could hibernate. I know, I know... my body couldn't... but my soul surely could!

The only thing winter really makes me want to do is travel to warm places and cook and bake. Since travel is much more expensive than cooking... you can guess which one I am doing more of. And you see... when you combine all that cooking and baking with not wanting to do anything else... well you end up eating way more calories than you need. And worse yet? Bundling up in a big fuzzy sweater only makes you look bigger.

It's a tough time, this winter you see. If I didn't have enough things plagueing me mentally as it is... now you can add in the winter blues... which just plain brings down everything.

I heard once in a seminar I took that most women think quite often (once a day?) that they must be crazy. Because this is how often we feel that our experience simply cannot be similar to that which others experience. Hearing that obvioulsy made an impact on me, as 5 years later, I still remember it being said. It's nice to know you're not alone. I certainly know I am not the only person out there who doesn't look forward to winter. I just wish I could take everything that I had here (ok, the whole country) and move it a few degrees south... like 15. :)

So... my solace is that even though it's already dark at 4pm here in Latvia... at least it's still 10 degrees C out there. It snowed once... but then it all melted and went away. And now... if the snow can hold off again... we only have to make it through February before the days start getting noticably longer again, and eventually it will warm up. And hopefully, I won't have eaten too many baked goods in that time, and will be able to lounge on the beach happy once again.